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Can God handle your doubts? In this blog inspired by my latest podcast episode (you can watch it here), I share my 10-year journey through spiritual questions, church hurt, and rediscovering faith in an unexpected way.

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Is It Safe to Question God?

Ten years ago, I went through a deep season of spiritual wrestling—one that led me to question not only the Church, but God Himself. I came out of that journey stronger, freer, and more honest in my faith than I’d ever been before. And today, I want to help you do the same.

If you’ve ever asked yourself:

• “Why does the Church seem to dismiss women?”
• “Does God really care about me?”
• “Is it even okay to question God?”

Then this post—and this episode—is for you.

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The Questions You’re Afraid to Ask

Let’s talk about the uncomfortable truth: many of us have real, valid issues with how we’ve experienced faith communities. And many of us carry secret doubts we’re too afraid to speak out loud.

But here’s what I’ve learned: God is not afraid of your questions.

He doesn’t need us to protect Him. He’s not fragile. He’s not going to vanish like Tinker Bell if we stop believing. God is God—with or without our belief—and He can absolutely handle your interrogations, your frustrations, and your heartbreak.

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Do You Want God to Be Real?

Before you even begin exploring your questions, there’s one deeper question you need to ask yourself:

Do you even want God to be real?

Because here’s the deal: we live in a time where information is everywhere. You can Google your way into believing anything. But faith—real faith—ultimately comes down to a choice. Not a blind one, but a willing one.

Like any relationship, choosing to believe in God is an act of intention. You have to want to engage with Him, to be open to the possibility that He’s more than what people have told you or what institutions have represented.

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When I Thought God Hated Women

Years ago, I hit a spiritual wall. I’d become convinced that the Church hated women—and I started wondering if God did too. I couldn’t shake the thought: If the Church silences women, maybe God’s silent toward us too.

So I did something bold—I reached out to a pastor at my church and asked to talk. I came armed with books, articles, and years of anger. I was ready to go to battle.

But the person who met me wasn’t who I expected.

He was an Irish guy with tattoos, earrings—basically a punk-rock pastor. And instead of debating me, he listened. He validated my experience. And something unexpected happened in that room: I felt seen.

It was like my own Woman at the Well moment.

Jesus didn’t come to condemn that woman; He came to reveal that He saw her pain. And in that moment, I realized: God hadn’t abandoned me. The Church may have let me down—but Jesus hadn’t.

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Women Have Always Been Part of the Story

We love to talk about Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. But God’s promises were fulfilled through Sarah. Mary wasn’t just a vessel—she was chosen, honored, and trusted with the Messiah.

Women have always been central to the Kingdom. We’re not an afterthought. We are part of the foundation. But insecure systems often push us aside. That doesn’t mean God does.

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What to Do With Your Doubts

So if you’re struggling today—if you feel let down, unheard, or angry—here’s what I encourage you to do:

A. Ask Yourself Honestly: Do you want to believe? Are you open to the possibility that God is bigger than the Church’s failures?

B. Talk to God: Tell Him exactly how you feel. Be raw. Be real. He can handle it.

C. Keep Your Heart Open: Resources, books, conversations—they’ll start finding you. That’s the beautiful thing about an honest journey: God often meets us right in the middle of our mess.

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Final Thoughts

If you made it to the end of this blog—or the podcast episode—thank you. I don’t take it lightly. I hope my story encourages you to keep asking, keep seeking, and keep your heart open. You’re not alone, and you’re not the only one asking these questions.

Your doubts don’t disqualify you from faith. Sometimes, they’re the very doorways that lead us deeper into it.